We all have those days when we feel like it’s never going to get better. We might be worried about something, we might be feeling lonely, or maybe a tragedy has shaken our world to its very core.
And then there are the days when we feel like it couldn’t possibly get better because life is just so goddamn amazing! Everything is coming up Millhouse, as it were, and you wonder how you could ever have felt bad...
Most days are somewhere in between. It may sound like a cliché, but it’s true: every year has its ups and downs. There are good years and bad years.
We spend so much time looking forward and worrying about the future, planning and thinking ahead, that it can sometimes feel like past and present get lost, muddled and confused.
I’m currently planning where I want to go to university in, gosh, nine months time, and revising for the exams to get me there which will begin in just five months! Then there are the oral exams in April and I have coursework due in March. What with all these plans, and still trying to enjoy the present just occasionally, it can feel like I’m on a really fast train careering down the tracks and there’s no time to even check the signposts, let alone stop and smell the roses. Changing my mind at Houston doesn’t even come into it.
All this high-speed travel, metaphorical and literal, has made me aware of the inevitability of Christmas, and the saying that: “Things change. And friends leave. And life doesn’t stop for anybody.”
Christmas doesn’t care if you’ve had a good year or a bad year. Christmas doesn’t care if, for whatever reason, “it just doesn’t feel like Christmas” for you. The days pass relentlessly, and Christmases come and go. And I suppose when I’ve seen seventy of them, I won’t remember any of the stuff that takes over my whole brain right now (and yes, that includes differential calculus). I’ll only remember the important bits, like if I get married or have children, or maybe publish a book someday. Who knows?
You might have had a bad year, and you might have niggling worries about 2014. But when Christmas happens, no matter where you are, it’s a sign that life goes on. Love goes on. Whether you’re celebrating with family or friends, or even on your own. Whether you’re in the house you grew up in, you’ve moved to a new family home, or you’ve emigrated to Australia, Canada, America... Whether you enjoy your turkey and ham or try to change up the routine. You’re still there and it’s still Christmas.
However you spend it, Christmas is a reminder that the world never stops spinning and time never stops passing. Another year has passed. Christmas is here once again: and you have survived.
|Picture by Tara.|